[it's pretty clear that akira is sincerely surprised by the way yusuke reacts. maybe he should know that his friends are incredibly loyal and understanding, that they wouldn't ever condemn him for something that existed beyond his control—that they would know and understand that the things he did absolutely destroyed him.
but that's the thing about the situation he was in—it messed with his perception of things. people he thought would understand he was cornered turn their backs on him, people who had done the same or worse looked at him as some kind of pariah and treated him as a bad person; it had gotten to the point of hypocrisy that really toyed with his mind. so maybe... maybe it's not so unexpected that akira is surprised by the response.
it takes him a long moment before he can process this, how angry yusuke is about the situation (though not directed at him), how...
that's probably how it should be. they were always in this together, and that realization has him slumping a bit against magilou, relief subtle and quiet that yusuke didn't lash out at him.]
I'm... just glad you didn't have to go through it. That you and the others didn't have to see how bad things really were.
[haru aside, but even haru didn't have to see the terrible things he'd done, so maybe it was for the better in that respect.]
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[it's pretty clear that akira is sincerely surprised by the way yusuke reacts. maybe he should know that his friends are incredibly loyal and understanding, that they wouldn't ever condemn him for something that existed beyond his control—that they would know and understand that the things he did absolutely destroyed him.
but that's the thing about the situation he was in—it messed with his perception of things. people he thought would understand he was cornered turn their backs on him, people who had done the same or worse looked at him as some kind of pariah and treated him as a bad person; it had gotten to the point of hypocrisy that really toyed with his mind. so maybe... maybe it's not so unexpected that akira is surprised by the response.
it takes him a long moment before he can process this, how angry yusuke is about the situation (though not directed at him), how...
that's probably how it should be. they were always in this together, and that realization has him slumping a bit against magilou, relief subtle and quiet that yusuke didn't lash out at him.]
I'm... just glad you didn't have to go through it. That you and the others didn't have to see how bad things really were.
[haru aside, but even haru didn't have to see the terrible things he'd done, so maybe it was for the better in that respect.]