[of course, he's troublesome in that way. when everyone has said to him time and time again that he needs to get over it, that he has to keep moving forward, that they need for him to be stronger—of course, stahn will take that to heart. he's trusting to a fault, after all. if his friends tell him that's what they need from him—
well, of course stahn is going to take that to heart.
it makes the fact that rutee is offering an ear and a shoulder in some way a bit surprising, though. after ilene's untimely death, it seems like rutee was the first to really scold him and remind him that they didn't have time for this. so this gentle offer seems...
not out of character, per se, but a bit surprising. it shows in his expression, with how his eyebrows raise and his jaw goes slack for a moment before he clamps it shut again. it's not a bad thing—they're friends, after all, and stahn has always offered her support when she was struggling (once he realized she was, of course), but here and now? he's not entirely sure how to respond.]
I was just trying to clear my head before I sleep, is all. A lot's happened lately...
[everything has been so nonstop that he just hasn't really had the time to process it. he's a sheltered kid from the countryside; before this journey...
he really didn't know much of death and destruction. he didn't know of the world's horrors. he didn't understand the evils people were capable of, or how someone who could want good and the same things he does could stand by ideals that ultimately would hurt more people—and that when those ideals couldn't be met, suicide was an option to some people.
stahn was raised so secluded that learning so much of what others had know much younger than him is just overwhelming—and he's not really sure how to address it while maintaining the ideal everyone expects from him, either.]
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well, of course stahn is going to take that to heart.
it makes the fact that rutee is offering an ear and a shoulder in some way a bit surprising, though. after ilene's untimely death, it seems like rutee was the first to really scold him and remind him that they didn't have time for this. so this gentle offer seems...
not out of character, per se, but a bit surprising. it shows in his expression, with how his eyebrows raise and his jaw goes slack for a moment before he clamps it shut again. it's not a bad thing—they're friends, after all, and stahn has always offered her support when she was struggling (once he realized she was, of course), but here and now? he's not entirely sure how to respond.]
I was just trying to clear my head before I sleep, is all. A lot's happened lately...
[everything has been so nonstop that he just hasn't really had the time to process it. he's a sheltered kid from the countryside; before this journey...
he really didn't know much of death and destruction. he didn't know of the world's horrors. he didn't understand the evils people were capable of, or how someone who could want good and the same things he does could stand by ideals that ultimately would hurt more people—and that when those ideals couldn't be met, suicide was an option to some people.
stahn was raised so secluded that learning so much of what others had know much younger than him is just overwhelming—and he's not really sure how to address it while maintaining the ideal everyone expects from him, either.]